rock bottom

Well. here I am. does it get much lower? homeless. jobless. mental case. hopefully not handicapped but maybe disabled. who am i right now and who's life have i taken authority over. not my own, i'm sure. how to flip this thing around before cast and crew are hurt for real? do i ask for more help - i mean from more than the usual parties...or do i stay the course until something opens up for me....cuz the usual joints don't seem to apply here. like Common said, i'm just opening my mental window for alittle while so maybe u'll climb in or just look in. likely a quick look will afford you a laugh. not at my expense, however, cuz i'm broke.